christmas/new year's wishes

here it's my christmas/new year's wishes:

0. recovery soon and can work at the field again.

1. I hope I can have a husband that as smart as my daddy and my father, as tall as my brothers, as big as my uncle, have gorgeous belly like my uncle, and can do this dance ( http://youtu.be/WpmILPAcRQo ---> this is dance from dirty dancing), and the most important is always love me the way I am and love me like my family love me.

2. break out from the job at least this february.

3. can go to the new country.

4. if possible, I can change my citizenship :)

....with all of love that you have, please make it happen God :)

love

have you ever felt in love?
are you sure that's love? or just admiring? or just dont want to be alone?

everytime i thought I felt in love, a week later i felt that's only admiring.
and my friend always said "that's good that you can honest to yourself"
the thing is, it doesn't matter what you feel is love or admiring, the most important is you know when you fall in love or just admiring and just to be honest with your self (never lying about what you feel).

almost end

a year ago, I was new with this company. Hoping I can work better and far from home. But now, I am just sitting at staff house hoping recovery soon.
A month ago, I was wondering how to pass this year.
A week ago, I just hoping that I will recovery soon and will go to the field and never comeback until I break out.
But now, I just pray that I can recovery soon and have happy ending in this year.

dream

Have you ever dream something weird? or something sweet?
For me,sometime my dream is really meaning full for me.
for example, I can like someone just because I saw him in my dream or I can feel terrified just because I dream something weird.
But, maybe the dream can be a sign from God. because when I did surgery (in this case my parent didn't know that I got injury and need surgery in that night), my father dreamt that I was dying. and in real life, I did my surgery in the night when my father dreamt about it and that was true because I was dying and use white gown (like dead people).
But sometimes I dream about something/someone that I really miss :)
But, I don't know why I never dream someone that I like in real life. But I can easily like someone who appear in my dream ( i know it's weird)

family

when you getting older and older, maybe you feel that family is not important anymore and the only thing that important are friends,work and your little family. But,it's wrong!!! family is the important thing in the world even you live far away from them. It's happen to me last week when I realized that family never leave you alone.
I got injured and need surgery,but unfortunately I leave far away from my home. I assume that I can through it without bothering my family. But, what I felt was lonely and really need them. I thought my friend or my partner at work can help me with everything in hospital, but they leave me after visit me for couple hours and then I'm alone at night.
It's not happen only to me, the patient next to me felt that too. even she already married, her parents still as her priority to help her to do private stuff.maybe she felt awkward with her husband but my point is we cant't remove our family from our circle, we still need them :)
Never forget your family!!!